admitted: 08/31/10
discharged: 11/16/10
final diagnosis: schizoaffective disorder
after 2.5 months inpatient stay, i finally get a taste of freedom again. so why do i feel so empty still? and useless? where is the cure? i want a mechanic to come along and say, "aha! i know just how to fix you." maybe i can hallucinate one out. the real world is large, and i'm lost. at least in the cage i knew what or what not to expect, even if it's nothing because nothing never disappoints. i got an incoherent someone to love who'd love me back. so what if it's inappropriate? it makes complete sense to me. a false relationship on false premises; a haven nonetheless.
